29/05/2011

Good Vibes



It was a long but yet fine week at work.
Wheater is still nice and i've discoverd a great vintage store in the Marais who's not asking completely crazy prices as the usual vintage stores in Paris.

I've waited to be friday since last sunday!
When the day finally arrived i was thrilled. J. was supposed to arrived around 8pm and then we where supposed to see Morning Parade concert with the girls.
So when he called me at 5pm and told me, he couldn't make it because he missed the co-voiturage (stupid work!) he was supposed to take for coming, i thought  Oh Oh...
He sounded really upset.
We try to find someone else but it didn't work out. Someday, things just not going right.
Suddenly i was feeling really depressed. He promise to come on saturday morning, very early.
I wanted to cancel the concert and go straight home but he convinced me to go.
So, I went to the concert, alone with my friends and there, out of the blue, 2 hours later, J. send me a text message : "i'm outside".  And . He . Was!
He took the train, check the adresse, took a map and came to join me :)

And it was just the begining of a GREAT week-end!
Feeling really happy.

22/05/2011

Back on Track!




Héhé feel good today!
I'm in a good mood and i've decided to really take some GOOD resolutions, like nooo doubts anymore, nooo questions and i want to stop being negativ, sacrastic (at least i will try) or pessimist! Just living the moment.
I'm so afraid to wasting my life and to losing some time that i trying to analyse every situation before, which of course is ridiculous because that is exactly a total waist of time :)
Anyway..



New Topic :
I went to the Christian Louboutin Store yesterday!
There was no line in front which was great, i didn't really want to wait hours for getting in.
I was lucky inside too, cause' i ve got the very last black pair at the right size!

After paying the 600€ and asking for a gift package, i went out white the cute Louboutin's bag.
Was so happy to didn't get to go to a bunch of different stores to find the perfect sandals to miss D. Birthday.

After that i went to meet my bestfriends Mj. at her place.
We chill for a while, get ready like only girls can do and head to the restaurant.
We where the first there, which when you now us, is a very hard thing to believe.
The other friends of D. arrived, some we do know some we don't, some really nice, some really shitty, but anyway, it was a good evening and we had very good food.
D. was over-excited about her gift    :)

After , i've slept at Mj's, i called J. and i went to bed.
This morning my Best-Friends-In-The-World brings me a great breakfast and we eat while watching Covert Affair.
I did not noticed how she miss me even if i saw her once or twice a week but always with someone else, like other friends or her boyfriend (who was to a bachelor party this week-end).
So i've spend a really great week-end and i'm (crazy to say that) ready to go working :)

Going to take a nap!






21/05/2011

Panik Attack




Wow, it starded that night with very confused dreams and it continues with awful doubts right now. I mean, what am i doing??
What if i doing a terrible mistake?
I always have struggle with choices especially when they are or might be life changing.
I mean, who doensn't, right??

Ok i'm done with it, new topic

Today it's one of my good friend birthday, D.!
We are going to the restaurant tonight and to a club after that.
In the after-noon, i'm going with her boyfriend buy her a pair of Christian Louboutin. She adores them and can't afford it, so we all contributed.
Should be a fun day!




19/05/2011

A Change is coming



Dear blog,

It's been a while! At least is the feeling i have.
So many things happend these past days that i completely losing my mind.

A real storm blew over my life... But that's for the best  :)



09/05/2011

Bad Hair Day




Soooo,

I've been to Brussels this week-end and it was just great!
I was sooo tired this morning, and i still is actually!
It's begining harder and harder to go to work. My thoughts are so far away from here right now that i can't focus...


05/05/2011

Morning Glory



Feeling so tired this morning..
I shouldn't have watch criminal minds so late yesterday.

I've noticed that i have a very strange routine when i wake up.
First i have the sweetest wake up song ever : Spanish Sahara from The Foals, i just love it
So when i hear it, even if i had a very little sleep, i'm all smile (most of the time), i stretch, i turn on the tv (just a few step away from my bed), i put some music on, i make cofee, i turn on my computer, i take a shower, i brush my teeth, i dry my hair, i dress, i put some make up and i go back on the computer until it's time to go.
And i pretty much do that EVERY morning!

I have plenty of time for myself actually and i can't decide if it's a good thing or a not so good thing. I think sometimes i miss having someone in my life. Okay, emotional part's over!
It's time to go ;)


03/05/2011

Oh Oh!



Wierd day today...

I did get some water (wanted to step out of my office really bad so i went to the second floor) when i saw Ca. she's a supervisor in our international department. We chat a bit and there, totally out of the blue, she told me that she have been promoted to another job and she was thinking about me to replace her. What? Sorry? Who? Me? Are you kidding? (in my head) Hum... What? Sorry? Who? Me? Are you kidding? (out loud) (with a sharp voice).

She cannot be serious. I mean it's obvious that i don't care about what i'm doing. How anyone can even think about me?
I will say no, of course.. I'm moving back to Brussels at the end of the month and this offer will not make me considered the possibility of staying.
Which is kind of stupid i guess, it's a great opportunity and i am so DAMN lucky!
Sometimes i just don't understand myself.

Anyway, i just feel my life is not here...

I'm going to Brussels this week-end for the baptism of my niece. I will see my all family, i havent see them for a year or so, i'm sure it's going to be great.

I don't even know what i'm going to wear! I will probably buy a cute new dress and oh, did i tell you that i was totally broke??





01/05/2011

Lazy Sunday





Not so productive day today, but it's sunday so it's not a big deal, right?
Can't believe the week-end is already over..

It's kind of crazy at work right now and i'm making long hours. Can't believe i'm invested in something i don't even care. Anyway it's not for long now, i will be relief soon and till that i will continue to gave the best i can.

It was great to talk to my family today. I have my mother very often on the phone, but today i've got my aunt and my father too. I've always love to travel and i alway wanted to live some place else, like America or Canada, but it's hard to be far away from them.

I already have spend 6 months in Los Angeles and 3 months in New York City but i came back home for a couple of months between every trip. This time is the first time i've been far for a long time and even if Paris is near Brussels, i didn't see my family more than once a month.
They seems to handle it well, exept for my little sister. She's always very sad when she sees me living. She's crying and don't understand why i cannot be happy in my home town like everybody else. I'm trying to explain that there so much more in the world to see and to try, but shes' to young to understand for now.
And it always breaks my heart when i have to say goodbye to her.

Now of course she's thrilled to know that i'm coming back home!
She's even more than happy to let me sleeping in her bed. I'm sure she has already plan tons of activities she will force me to do, like playing school, or restaurant, or God knows what else..
But i have to say that i will be more than happy (and moody) to play...


I wanted to watch some good movies or reading a good book today, or doing something that doens't sound like a waist of time but here i am, watching a documentary about bees (interesting thought but kind of nerdy) while eating an old bag of chips, with crazy hair and a totally geek t-shirt.
Don't know, i feel like if i was all dolled-up with some make up and clean hair, with a cute little nightgown on it would'nt seems right. You know what i mean?
For real nobody does that, right?
Especially when you know there will be anyone who will come get you home.

So it is kind of cool to be single in a way.
When i have a boyfriend i like to be perfect (at least i try to).
So now, it's good to be free to not shaving, to having some lame polish on toenail and wearing a StarWars T-shirt.
At least during the week-end.. 'Cause during the week, i have to be really pretty for work (how silly is that?)
My co-workers are convinced that we are hired for our physics. And i have to say there is just girls (women) between 25 and 35 years old working with me. And they all looks good (great).

Unfair, shoking, revolting? Yeah... they are Bastards and i'll bet they know it!

Anyway

I soon be back to my old job, the one where you can come as you are and where nobody will never said a bad word about it, the one where you can eating 2 desserts and nobody will be alarmed by the amout of carbs you just ate.

Now It Says, 'scuse me but i have to work on my abs ;)









En Mai, fais ce qu'il te plaît!




Always loved May 1st!

Exept than this year, there is anybody to offer me some lilies..
I will propably have to buy some myself (pathetic right?) but i can't skip my chance to be lucky this year^^

There is a great sun today! Don't know yet what i will do thought. My friends are busy, so i can go to a park or take a walk or even taking a brunch alone OR i can stay home and watching True Blood. Hard to choose!

I went to a movie last night 'Animal Kingdom' and it was REALLY good! It's an Autralian movie about a criminal family. It's been a while that i didn't see such quality.

After that i went to C. party and i actually had a great time! I'm not a big partygirl but i like to have fun and i'm very curious but i'm not always confortable with people.
Usually i find them stupid or pointless and i feel like i have to pretend, even if i do it ten time less than before. I'm not shy at all it's just that i don't always enjoy company.
Even my friends don't really understand why i'm such an anti-social sometimes.

But at C. party i didn't know anybody exept her so it was a good practice. I spoke to a bunch of interesting people from everywhere (and i wasn't even drunk!). Most of them has living in Canada and had spend some times in USA, so whe had a lot of topics to discuss, which was great. And i've suprised myself having a really nice time.

When i came back home i've watched some MisFits episode, did i tell you that is was totally crazy about this show? GOSH!
When i first saw it, i didn't see anybody for a whole week. I went straight home after work for watching it.
I'm really addict to tvshows. I'm addicted to a lot of things actually (but good things only), like movies, music, books! I'm interested in anything. I love to fill me with goooood stuff.

I'm really hungry BTW!
And there is anything in here, arghh. Don't want to take off my pj, feeling so comfy at home.
Just a perfect lazy sunday minus the great breakfast, and since the breakfast is the most important part of a great lazy sunday, i'm just screwed!